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[LightUpTheEyes]

Everyone is different dude, and you're right, it doesn't take over your mind and type words for you, but it does influence your decisions and when it goes completely unchecked for 29 years, it is actually quite easy to progress to where I have gotten.

I have been made to feel totally crazy for as long as I can remember. I have always felt like there was SOMETHING going on, but no one ever believed me, especially since I wasn't aware of what it was, just that SOMETHING was off.

Just because your experience with it differs from mine doesn't make mine any less valid. This is just a brand new discovery for me and the emotional outbursts are just the result of me not realizing I had ADD/ADHD and just taking on all the failure as a personal burden. It warps your perception man.

Now that I am aware of it, I instantly find it easier to manage myself.

You can try to discredit me all you please but I am literally telling my therapist about all the sh*t I do and say and under what circumstances and he just nods and smiles and says "yep, that's the ADD brain at work".

The fact that you have the same disorder and here you are trying to make me feel bad about this revelation is... strange...

Makes me think you are either lying, or your medication is simply doing it's job and has been for so long that you've forgotten what it feels like.

Anyways, thanks for giving an honest opinion at least!

Cheers!!

Clarification:

My therapist has already explained to me that just like any disorder, there's a spectrum to ADD/ADHD. You can be mildly affected or severely affected or somewhere in the middle.

Evidence suggests, based on what we have both expressed, that my ADD/ADHD is simply more severe than yours.

It could also just be that you were diagnosed young and have had awareness all your life and have also tried medications.

I am 29 years old, have suspected something for well over a decade with no one ever believing me, and have suffered thinking I just fail at life.

Lol. This right here. This rambling. ADD/ADHD. You should know this, bud!! That is, if you're actually telling the truth...

I'm not discrediting the fact you have add, nor am I going to get into a who has the worse add argument, I was just stating that having add doesn't make you a jerk like you were to Knight in another thread. Using Add as an excuse for being like that is just what it is, an excuse.

I was diagnosed at a very young age, I'm 32 now. I've been off the medication for a very long time. Therapists just want to shove drugs down your throat which those medications cause much worse problems than having a wondering mind that makes it hard to concentrate, which they don't tell you. I was on Adderall mainly, but have tried all sorts. These medications will mess you up after a while. You'll start to see things that are not there, you will have to remind yourself to eat and will not want to due to no appetite. Most of all, once you get sick of how it's effecting you and try to get off them. You'll battle with major depression.

Do yourself a favor and just force yourself to concentrate. It's hard to do so, but just like with anything, practice makes it easier to do so.

[MrBdur]

I'm not discrediting the fact you have add, nor am I going to get into a who has the worse add argument, I was just stating that having add doesn't make you a jerk like you were to Knight in another thread. Using Add as an excuse for being like that is just what it is, an excuse.

I was diagnosed at a very young age, I'm 32 now. I've been off the medication for a very long time. Therapists just want to shove drugs down your throat which those medications cause much worse problems than having a wondering mind that makes it hard to concentrate, which they don't tell you. I was on Adderall mainly, but have tried all sorts. These medications will mess you up after a while. You'll start to see things that are not there, you will have to remind yourself to eat and will not want to due to no appetite. Most of all, once you get sick of how it's effecting you and try to get off them. You'll battle with major depression.

Do yourself a favor and just force yourself to concentrate. It's hard to do so, but just like with anything, practice makes it easier to do so.

Dude, I get that you have your own experience with it, and that's great.

My experience with it is difficulty focusing on slow, boring tasks, but hyperfocusing/obsessing over interesting things.

When I tell a story I tend to tell part of one before getting sidetracked with another story I remembered due to the story I had already been telling.

I am incapable of sitting still. I tear my fingers and nails apart. I chew my lips til they bleed. I used to pick at my arms like a heroin junky. I feel compelled to move or fidget at all times.

My emotions are INTENSE. They feel very strong and there is nothing I can do to stop them. The biggest issue is anger.

I have always had anger problems. They developed around 6 months of age according to my mom. That's oddly young.

I experienced blackout rage at the age of 12. That is NOT normal. I have never heard of anyone that young having blackout rage before.

The thing is, it isn't only anger that feels ao powerful.

When I get sad, I get REALLY sad. Same with excitement and guilt and glee!!

It all comes in like a flood, it's just that anger always got focused on because it caused the most problems outwardly.

I have also always spoken very quickly, to the point that people have trouble following me. I also get very loud very quickly when I really get into talking about something and I have no idea I'm doing it until it is pointed out.

When I get "triggered", I spiral downwards into a pit of overwhelming emotion and my usual logical thoughts go bye bye and irrational, emotionally driven thoughts start popping out.

If that doesn't resemble your experience in any way, I'd have to say I will likely be diagnosed as ADHD whereas you have ADD.

[King_of_Xibalba]

I'm not discrediting the fact you have add, nor am I going to get into a who has the worse add argument, I was just stating that having add doesn't make you a jerk like you were to Knight in another thread. Using Add as an excuse for being like that is just what it is, an excuse.

I was diagnosed at a very young age, I'm 32 now. I've been off the medication for a very long time. Therapists just want to shove drugs down your throat which those medications cause much worse problems than having a wondering mind that makes it hard to concentrate, which they don't tell you. I was on Adderall mainly, but have tried all sorts. These medications will mess you up after a while. You'll start to see things that are not there, you will have to remind yourself to eat and will not want to due to no appetite. Most of all, once you get sick of how it's effecting you and try to get off them. You'll battle with major depression.

Do yourself a favor and just force yourself to concentrate. It's hard to do so, but just like with anything, practice makes it easier to do so.

I feel you man, you are the stadistic like me, homever maybe Bdur will get better luck. I have some friends that don´t suffer secondary effects at all, others that suffer lower effects like for example a little brain fog or a little weight gain, and people like me who can lose libido lol, I prefer my pee pee hard and strong.

[PicoAncus]

Not disrespecting the problems presented by people.

As a joke, let me tell you the following:

I have situations that cause spontaneous irritations capable of physical violence.

One of them is when I am executing an opponent near a 4v4 ledge, and I see on the radar that an opponent is approaching at high speed, and it will probably arrive before I finish the execution. Just give me an intense intestinal colic followed by extreme irritation.

another thing that causes me headaches and intense irritation, is to be in a gank with more than 2 Tiandis or 2 Jormungandrs, whatever team they are ...
Only screams and screams are heard to the point that I stare at the wall and reconsider firing the command until it breaks in 30 pieces.

Sorry for the outburst, it was just a joke to cheer up the guys.

[Xavyn]

I too struggle with ADD and although you may not like parts of what LightUptheEyes is saying he is spot on about treating it. The medications doctors want to prescribe for it can put you on a slippery slope especially if addiction is in your genes. I am not a doctor and I doubt anyone else in this thread is and attaching a label to someone's mental health is difficult because most mental illness's manifest on a spectrum and you could be suffering from multiple illnesses on various levels of their respective spectrums.

Some of what you describe certainly sounds like ADD/ADHD but some of the more major symptoms you describe seem to me to be more in the area of manic depression or bipolar mania. Whatever the case I wish you the best of luck finding the best treatment and diagnosis and hope you can hold things together. Take care man.

[Knight_Raime]

I too struggle with ADD and although you may not like parts of what LightUptheEyes is saying he is spot on about treating it. The medications doctors want to prescribe for it can put you on a slippery slope especially if addiction is in your genes. I am not a doctor and I doubt anyone else in this thread is and attaching a label to someone's mental health is difficult because most mental illness's manifest on a spectrum and you could be suffering from multiple illnesses on various levels of their respective spectrums.

Some of what you describe certainly sounds like ADD/ADHD but some of the more major symptoms you describe seem to me to be more in the area of manic depression or bipolar mania. Whatever the case I wish you the best of luck finding the best treatment and diagnosis and hope you can hold things together. Take care man.

Probably the only response i'm going to put here simply because this entire thread isn't related to the game at all and thus shouldn't continue on here. It's more appropriate for an off topic section but regardless. Having 4 siblings of my own with 3 different biological fathers combined with my own mom's side of the family has exposed me to a variety of mental illnesses. That and my mom is also in the mental health field as well. So i've got quite the experience.

I would agree that some of what OP is describing sounds like Bipolar. However it's important to note that someone can have tendancies of a particular mental disorder but not actually have it. As an example I have obsessive compulsive tendancies. Like overly washing my hands, making sure certain things go certain ways, or my uncanny fondness for certain things. But none of it hugely impacts my capability to think or behave rationally. I'm for all intents and purposes a functioning member of society. So I wouldn't be diagnosed with disorder.

Depression on the other hand is hugely varied and easy to misdiagnose. My own experiences have had me labeled as both situational depression and also severe depression. However i've never been officially diagnosed since that costs money that I don't have. Overall I think it's nice that OP is wanting to own up to their behavior in the past with this post even if the angle they approach it with is a tad misguided. We should all wish them well in getting on track. Some people I know avoided being diagnosed/treatment for a long time purely because getting labeled has a lasting effect on your life. More than it really should from a societal standpoint. So best of luck on them handling that and hopefully moving forward.