Despite difficulty, finally returned with just pray having my voice heard. I know had already posted a thread but have not wish to return to it, as looking back it truthfully was a mess yet under different reasons. Even so, I hope some got across or at least understood to some levels. To be frank, it was quite difficult to make that thread or post and honestly falls here as well. Point is, I just......if willing to reading this, I thank you, not only for the chance but also hearing me out, thank you. Also wish to deeply apologize if there are problems in this thread, I have a habit where, one part processing or moving faster before other has time or even chance to catch up. So there might be things that slip through I do not see, sorry.
First, wish to say, I did not return to open any cans on certain subjects, argue or insult, as many have done so before and truthfully it honestly achieves nothing. My reason is personal yet would like to speak it or much I possibly can to best of abilities. Alright just going outright say, I never finished Far cry 5 and no intention to do so as all honesty some thing horrible went wrong in my first real play, leading me to be unable to finish. Yet the state I found myself in resulted insanity spree, where I tormented myself six times not only making it worse but ultimately ending with same results.
Yet in all this of this, I did see good which is a normal trait of mine when I play games, as I can see the good despite others saying its bad but won't deny their thoughts/opinions unless its just pure hate. Now what good I saw, I enjoyed running around with people and certain animal or more the ones I've met, Nick, Jess, Grace, Boomer and Resistance fighters * Which truthfully I had few unique lucky ones* but out of all those rose a important one, my deep care for Deputy Hudson. Finding myself not only caring for her quite so but also a strong attachment to her spawning. I know few or many will say, that its unhealthy as well dangerous yet all honesty anything can reach those levels, even to certain degrees. Being truthful, there was nothing wrong with it, to point I accepted it, real issue was the fact it got warped by despair and depression. Before you even try, I already attempted to talk or more revealed this to people in the medical field and was the biggest mistake of my life. Also I have no intention of doing a certain word as a song that helps reminds me of my state but strength as well, so please try not to insult me. Also it played a part to a degree in me arriving here. Anyway, I don't wish to speak about this part anymore...
Reason or why I arrived here was to fight for her, Deptuy Hudson. As all honesty I saw the good in her, from willpower, care, to just awesomeness yet while acknowledging the fact she was hurting as truthfully I never left her side after saving her, learning cool but more saddening things. Yes she attacked you which I honesty forgave her for as looking what surrounds that incident, can you really blame her. She is the process of escaping from a nightmare, suddenly hearing rushing footsteps believing its tormentors, unaware its Rook and not all helping, Rook,silent, rushed in as well, not once yelling her name let alone not showing anything upon not finding her at first. Funny, took a long time and after reading something I finally accepted the fact they hit her yet my deep care for her blocked it and so I never acknowledged it. After all she is the only that tried to do something even though outnumbered after the helicopter crashed.
Point I say of this, I truly believe Deputy Hudson is alive, along hope, pray, believe her to be New Dawn, as I won't lie, she all honesty means a lot to me. As I did look over that scene few good times and all honesty just see she is nothing more but knocked out. Trying to explain her survival, there are many different ways, from her strength, to fact Jess Black very much could or did save her since Jess very much would've come across the car when she raced to her uncle's bunker. Finding a very much alive, Hudson just banged up from the crash and two raced to find shelter. Reason for this belief, that whole scene is nothing more but pure assumption and fact Rook really does nothing but leaves.
In the end, I just truly hope, pray and believe, she is in New Dawn as it truly would mean the world. Even with this, I am also terrified...
*Deeply apologize for this small side note, thought it be a nice little break from everything else, sorry.*
Its funny, with a lot hate resting on Joseph, I never did nor did any connection formed, I just simply did not care for him. My hate rested on John Seed, to point I had no issues in becoming one of Wrath's monsters to see him burn only to ultimately hate what I became after it all but I knew the very reason why I did so. Odd thing, upon doing that boss fight for the time, interesting event occurred, our planes collide somehow, honestly it was so random and out of the blue I don't even know what happened. Other times, I just had Nick help me, as truthfully did not enjoy that fight mainly due I'm not a great Dog fighter.
I see....well this was not my intention. I just.....wish my voice be heard and not be warped but if it happens, not much I can do about it.Originally Posted by proplayer229 Go to original post
To be truthful, will try to keep this short if I can.
I truly still believe Deputy Hudson is alive, along hope, pray, believe her to be New Dawn, as I stated she truly does mean a lot to me. Yes I get it, the deep care I have for her is unhealthy and dangerous but all honesty I won't let it go nor was it truly hurting, more the fact it got warped. Other fact, everything to anything also can be unhealthy and dangerous, even to certain levels. Yet this is not why returned to speak again, its just more to talk about her..
Ultimately feeling not only be world to see her again but more the fact, how she is faring from surviving the event yet more the torment John Seed inflicted upon her. As see her aimed to protect as she never got the chance to. To hope, Hudson, she would be able to run around with you, doing whatever. As not only seeing it would be awesome but if allowed to have two companions or friends accompanying you, as fact, her interactions be interesting to Nick and Kim's daughter, so on but more to especially certain new character that goes by just a title but has a big spoiler to them. Just can see it now...
Possible Hudson's line * Why do you keep staring at me?! Do I have something on me or something?! *
Possible Certain character's line * ................. *
Anyway, I just all honesty truly believe Deputy Hudson is alive and will continuing hoping, praying, believing her to be New Dawn.
My other thoughts, I really have no issues with the colors as honestly I see it, they are trying something different than the main normal colors seen in these types of setting along fact it kinda gives off a sense of hope.
Truth be told, it was difficult to make a return, a lot due to different kind of issues but here I am once more. As I said before, I will do my best to keep this short and maybe this time will be so...
All honesty I still truly believe Deputy Hudson is alive, along hope, pray, believe her to be New Dawn, as I stated probably good few or many times she truly means a lot to me. Yes I still get this whole care for her, deep as it is, unhealthy, dangerous but once again being truthfully I won't let it go nor was it truly hurting, more the simple fact it got warped. Another fact, almost everything to anything also can become dangerous and unhealthy, even to certain levels. Once more,not really something I returned to speak about yet feel I have to mention or state it, sorry. Just wish more to talk about her..
Ultimately it would be the world to see her again, to just see her handling or more faring from whole surviving the event but more all the torment she endured from what John Seed inflicted upon her. Truthfully still view Hudson, doing everything she can to protect everyone she cares about. Hopeful that Hudson is possible new companion, as all honesty love to run around with her, but the interactions from her would be truly interesting. Its difficult to speak more and its not like I don't wish to do so but I already spoke so much, which would appear I was nothing more repeating, something I do not wish.
Maybe a bit lighter note, it was weird or more odd that her shotgun immediately fell into the void at start only to return after finding/rescuing her. Another is just how we learned her first name. Will say, one true hate was the fact, unable to save Hudson after escaping and just forced to leave her in that hell until the boss fight against John then race to his bunker.
In the end,I still truly believe Deputy Hudson is alive, along hope, pray, believe her to be New Dawn. I mentioned reasons why along fact, did look over that scene few good times and all honesty just see she is nothing more but knocked out. Trying to explain her survival, there are truly many different ways, from her strength, to fact Jess Black very much could or did save her since Jess very much would've come across the car when she raced to her uncle's bunker. Finding a very much alive, Hudson just banged up from the crash and two raced to find shelter. Reason for this belief, that whole scene is nothing more but pure assumption and fact Rook really does nothing but leaves.
Its funny, despite all of this and the little peace I gained, I am still terrified
Last thing, I wish to say thank you once again, for the chance to be heard even with whatever your take may be, still thank you.
Dude it’s just a video game.I also like to get immersed in the far cry games and with character creation and a silent protagonist it was a huge step in the right direction.(Besides past characters haven’t spoken very much too)^^But deputy hudson is not real so don’t think that much about it.Beside you are a new character and not the deputy anymore so it would make sense if the deputy would fight for her but the far cry games are not about love or anything like that